me, in my mind

Monday, May 31, 2010

Finally..Torture Garden in review!

Ok, so it's taken a while for pictures to be approved and posted, but I found some good ones so here we go:
Friday: was at the swingers club Wicked, on queen, and was slightly awkward because the venue let their members/anyone who wanted to use the upstairs facilities for actual swinging..which would have been fine had our changing area not been the locker room where all the soon-to-be- swingers changed as well. Stretching is much harder when trying not to make eye contact with the dis-robing man beside you as he prepares to go have sex with a random stranger. Got a decent picture out of it, tough, note the man groping the girl in the background. Classy.
Saturday went well, Heather's neck was better by this point and I think we had a rather inspired wardrobe idea. We used elastic to make shibari knots so that as we moved and bent, so would the elastic. It worked really well and looked, from what I've seen, really awesome. The outfits that night were out of this world. My fave was the guy in the custom latex Anubis costume, full body-suit complete with Jackal head piece with raised hieroglyphic applique. Awesome! Also made friends with some fire spinners, one of whom had commissioned through Northbound a latex corset in red and black leopard print. It was nice..and reeeally expensive. I also hit it off with one of the guys, Ian, who has super mad staff spinning skills and has agreed to teach me in exchange for aerial lessons. Needless to say I will do my best to remain in the company of this rather attractive individual. Here are some pics from saturday.
Heather and I after silks. Silks plus very little clothing =massive burns.
Ian in ninja mode.

Saturday had, by far, the most extreme performances, from the fire guys' fire swords act to the suspension guys (for those blissfully unaware, suspension is where grown people hang themselves from hooks implanted in their own skin. It was gross and disturbing in a compelling kind of way. )
Another performance was a girl who did blindfolded self-shibari, which I found impressive, but then finished her act by bringing out a giant dead octopus and doing inappropriate things to it, including having it ink all down her front as the finale..It was rather shocking, even to Heather' who has seen more of this stuff than me, but it had the audience talking and I guess that was the point.
Sunday was my big day, my hoop act went well, I made some good connections, including with the owner of Northbound Leather, who said he wanted me for his Halloween party, the Holy Grail of fetish nights and an event I have wanted to perform at for a long time! Yay! No pictures of hoop yet, but I'll keep you all posted. I really enjoyed the whole process, and for the first time really felt like I could make a go at this whole full time performer thing. Hopefully, if my place sells for enough I can start a business for real and get a website going and sell sell sell to the various events like this one around the planet. Lots of the other performers follow the TG dj's around from city to city. They don't make a ton, but they're living an awesome life and get treated pretty well as they go..I think Heather and I make a good team, here's hoping she agrees and all goes well. I need to have a meeting with her about where she would like to go from here, if anywhere, but hopefully she realizes that this market, the fetish scene, is starved for quality circus. I say we fill a void!








Friday, May 21, 2010

yay a new post and...showtime!

K, so don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to this weekend, Torture Garden Toronto, I really am, but can the circus gods please let me catch a break, for once? Please? My stuff is fine, but the other aerialist, the girl who got me the gig in the first place, just f-ed up her neck and can't perform tonight and may be sitting tomorrow out as well. This is v. not good since I'm not really in my element until Sunday, when I debut my hoop solo. (Go me!) Massive sigh. Now I have to do all the last min. running around because Heather's laid up, unable to look up or down. I hope she can perform tomorrow, I really do, because as you all know (or ought to) I really don't like silks, and that's the apparatus of choice for Saturday. On the up side, my make up should be, as the french say, le awesome. I'll try to take some pics of my own and post them here. I'm thinking they should be relatively nudity free, we'll see.
Hey, and I just re-read some of my older posts, the ones concerning the dress of doom and fabric copification..problem solved! When life hands you a creepy stalker copy-cat who keifs your fabric and makes a eerily similar historical re-creation dress; send them to Germany. Yes, Mike and the stupid-face girlfriend have gone to Germany and will be there until after the Casa Loma ren. fair! Yay! Just thought you all would like to know how that worked out. quite nicely, actually...Now if only the circus gods would be so accommodating.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

ramblings


Hey all, just posting for the sake of keeping this thing fresh. Hopefully, something of note will be on here in approx. 2 weeks, I'll keep y'all in the loop about that.
There's a chance I'm going to be walking in Toronto Alternative Fashion week (or, FAT, for some reason) for a designer named Artifice Clothing. Check out their website, they make really cool and unique pvc designs, the likes of which I've never seen and which are shockingly reasonably priced. I want to buy their Lee-Loo cosplay option in red to wear on the saturday or sunday for the upcoming Toronto Fetish Weekend that I'm performing at.
That's about it, although for my own sanity I need to mention that Mikes stupid-face girlfriend is creeping me out more and more. Now, along with starting a blog, learning to sew, amassing a corset collection, going to ren. fairs, creating a modeling profile, and attending Anime North for the first time in May, she apparently just LOVES Dr. Who.
My urge to punch the both of them is rising...

Monday, March 22, 2010

massive hyperventalation-inducing freak-out of doooom!!


OMG!! ok, so I'm posting a link to a facebook picture of stupid mike and his stupid new girlfriend, the one who is a diluted version of me in many creepy respects...she's wearing some dress she made, it looks pretty well put together, good for her, except that raging who-ore has seemingly made it out of THE SAME F-ING MATERIAL as the dress I spent the last 3 months putting together, and to make matters WORSE, there's been rumblings that Mike is bringing her to the Casa Loma ren. faire...That means we could end up wearing dresses made of the SAME FABRIC!!! This shall not do! ARGGHH, Wench, saucy, damn, hobby-copying troglodyte!! I can't believe this is even an issue!!! I know he saw my dress because he left comments on the pictures that I posted forever ago! What do I do? Is it in fact the same fabric??
Worst day ever.
here's my dress to compare.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

on second thought

Ok, so I officially retract the majority of last post, although after talking to some girls at circus, a lot of guys really do expect you to put out or get out on date #3, which is ridiculous. Anywhoo, Grant had the best excuse ever for not calling until yesterday, being on a mountain in Kentucky makes cell reception a bi-otch. So we're still doing the awkward pseudo-dating thing which I'm happy about.
But the majority of guys, in my experience and in others', still blow...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

ARRRGGGHH

Why are boys so dumb? I like to think that I'm a pretty groovy gal, relatively low maintenance, all I ask is the occasional dinner out and some time to myself every so often and it's all good. I really didn't think the myth of the dreaded "third-date" still existed, ay know, where you're expected to put out solely because you happened to like a person enough to see them three times...I'm sorry, but if I don't even know your middle name, there's no way I'm hopping in the sack. Nuf said.
So yeah, now, after some really fun nights out climbing and movie-seeing and whatnot, this guy hasn't called or communicated in any way and it's been almost a week. I'm genuinely saddened that this person, who seemed cool and down to earth is willing to never see me again because I wouldn't risk a close encounter with syphilis or something just so he could get his rocks off. ARRGHH indeed. Where are the decent guys? The ones who realize it takes more than a grand total of 15 hours spent with a person while clothed to equal 1 hour with clothes off? I feel like I'm constantly stuck at that damn school up at Downsview with no one around but other female performers or students I couldn't date if I wanted to, for fear of losing my job. I've tried the internet scene to no avail...This is truly annoying. If I can't get a date, me, a fucking aerial CONTORTIONIST; well educated, decent looking, willing to dress up like a total whore if the occasion calls for it (read: Mer's par-tay), then who the hell can find someone to spend time with.
Sigh.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Gigs!!!

Whatsup my faithful followers, thought it was about time for an update, although with stupid school keeping me down not much of note has happened recently...Still "seeing" Grant, it's in that awkward "are we dating, I don't know" phase, but things are good nonetheless. Suzy, it was crazy seeing you at Cafe crepe, we must catch up on morrow next..
Anywhoo, my big (ish) news is regarding an upcoming show in May..it's not my usual thing, I was contacted by a girl who used to perform with Sublime but left due to "difficulties." At this point, I understand how she felt. So, the gig is the T.O version of the popular world-wide fetish party/convention ominously called Torture Garden. I talked to some girls who performed there last year and they said it was all in good fun, just like a normal act/ambiance stuff but with weirder (read: less) clothing. The hair-falls are definatly going to make an appearance.
Should be fun. The former Sublime chick also has a sort of quasi-agency that she wants me to be a part of as a bookable act and she has carved out a nice little niche for herself in the "alternative" scene which has, up to now, been subject to some really sketchy circus. Think Sterling ren faire and you'll know what I mean. So hopefully they like seeing a legit aerialist along with the suspensions, peircings, rubber mouldings, shibari and other cookiness that seems to occur at this event.
Do NOT tell the 'rents.